Is it just me or has been an excessively shitty year? And it's only July??? I haven't blogged in forever and I may or may not blog again for a few months after this. Not sure anyone reads it anyway so doesn't really matter. My uncle died a little less than two months ago. He died way too young. Cancer. It was in his brain so they couldn't remove it surgically and was so aggressive that the chemo and radiation just made him feel sick, didn't really affect the cancer. We only found out in December that he even had cancer and he's already gone. It's been hard watching my family deal with this. They're all amazing people, just like my uncle was, but they shouldn't have to deal with this. If there's someone out there to blame for this please let me know, I'd like a few words.
My parents are divorcing. 23 years and now they're just done. It's odd because it wasn't like there was some big blow out, they didn't get mean and snippy towards each other. Just indifferent, like they have been for as long as I can remember. I'm angry about it. That small part of me wants to lash out and ask them why the hell they think they can do this? But then I step back and see that this is absolutely the best thing for both of them and when I'm being really honest I can admit that this probably should have happened a long time ago. Dad's got a new girlfriend already. She's been in the picture a lot longer than he'll admit. She's only 7 years older than me and she hides from me. How can I be expected to be polite and respectful to someone with no backbone? And if they think that there's nothing wrong with their relationship then why are they hiding it?
I got moved to the graveyard shift at work. It's been interesting having my sleep and work schedules completely reverse. This is night three and I'm doing better than I had hoped. I wish I could have stayed on graves but am totally fine with this shift. I figure if I have to be up all night I might as well start to go back to school. At the very least it'll give me something to do at work. It's so quiet here at night. Makes me twitchy.
Well...aren't I just a regular little Mary Sunshine?
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